Diary of a Shy Girl: Entry #9 – The Internet

Being shy affects me not only in my real life but online as well. Most people find communicating over the internet a lot easier, but not me. I think I might find it harder…

Twitter chats are a great way to meet other bloggers and have the conversation topic set so it removes any anxiety of not knowing how to get started. Every Twitter chat I’ve been a part of has been a great experience and everyone I’ve spoken to has been lovely. But…I still struggle with knowing what to say! I want to reply and I want to make friends but I can’t think of a single thing to say and it’s so frustrating.

If I struggle in Twitter chats, then general Twitter chit-chat is even harder! I’m always nervous that I’m going to annoy the person I’m speaking to, that I’ve misread the tweet and now look silly or that I am just totally cringe. Sometimes, people take a while to reply which is fair enough because I do too but this just feeds into my fear that I’ve made a complete fool of myself.

I wish it was normal to be validated at least once a day or even once an hour. I wish it wasn’t pathetic to want to be told by everyone I know: “you’re not annoying, you haven’t annoyed me, you’re doing fine so chill the eff out.” Actually, I don’t wish that, because then I will forever be stuck in this hole and I’ll never learn to get out of it myself.

Does anyone else find conversing with other people on Twitter really hard? Everyone I’ve ever spoken to has been totally lovely, so I don’t know why I’m stuck in this mindset. As usual, the only person holding me back is me!

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